Sunshine & Summertime...

The Top *9* Reasons I Am READY For Summer

1. Flip Flops- So Many Colors, So Cheap, So Easy To Slip On.

2. Walking- The Weather Is Perfect By The Time I Get Home, For Hubby, Logan, Champ & I To Take A Walk! (I Always Lose Weight In The Summer So BONUS)

3. Capris & Tank Tops- So Simple Yet So Cute. So Easy.

4. Backyard BBQ's- I LOVE Family Get Togethers. Every Night Is The Perfect Night To Grill Out, Throw Some Washers, & Go For A Swim.

4. Fresh Cut Grass- One Of The Most Refreshing Smells EVER!

5. Heat Lightning- Romantic, Calming, Beautiful, Relaxing.

6. River Trips- My Husband And I Are Frequent Canoers, Tubers, & Rafters. I Love River Trips That Take All Day. Nothing Like A Few 2 Many Drinks & A Sunburn.

7. Mike's Hard Lemonade- Enough Said :)

8. Sunshine- Puts Everybody In A Good Mood!

9. 4th Of July- My Personal Favorite Holiday. Camping, BBQ's, Fireworks.

Getting Back Into The Swing Of Things...

It's official I am a terrible blogger. I tell myself everyday, today I am going to figure out this blogging business, and then I find myself hour after hour just reading other peoples blogs instead. Oh how I love this blogging world, now if I could only make myself a part of it. I have a feeling though, once I get the hang on it, it may consume to much of my life. HAHA! So, to the random few who would actually enjoy reading my blog let me fill you in on what has been going on with me.

My baby boy turned 1. It seems that he is learning something new everyday, he is absolutely amazing. And as far as amazing goes, did I mention he is amazingly quick and sneaky all of a sudden? My son, is all boy. I'm talking dirt, bugs, pulling his puppies tail, trucks, smashing things together, growling when large loud trucks go by, oh how did I get so lucky? :) Tell me if this sounds weird... My son was a complete suprise to my husband and I, he was unexpected, and to say the least we were terrified, why had god chosen us to be parents? My pregnancy was a nightmare between morning sickness, hospitalization for "severe morning sickness", IUGD, weekly non-stress test, sudden dangerously high blood pressure, and induction that didn't work, 12 hours of labor, and an emergency C-section... Ahhh! And then there he was, blonde, long, and perfect. The first 3 months were a blur of sleepless nights, constant outfit changes, heating bottles to just the right temperature, SCREAMING car trips... and wow, was it all worth it. I have always been thankful for my son, and I love him to lengths that are unexplainable, but some recent events, have made me hug him just a little tighter when I get home from work. I am no longer frustrated when he wakes up at 3:00am, I no longer sigh when he empties his toy box 30 seconds after I put everything away, I no longer get frustrated when he takes every single shirt out of his dresser drawer and throws it on the ground, I no longer sigh when he unrolls all of the toilet paper and trails it through the house. Yes, I am still teaching him wrong from right, but I am starting to let the little things roll off my back because his is so amazing, and I am so lucky to be a parent. I read these blogs, and pray for people daily, people with children fighting for their lives, woman fighting to conceive, husband and wives fighting to adopt, and here's where it really hit me. My good friend (one of my best & oldest friends) was 9 months pregnant, due to deliver her son April 30th, 2009. She is such an amazing person, and her finace and her were so ready. Crib, bottles, formula, pajamas, baby shower gifts galore. On Tuesday April 21st, 2008 she delivered Ashton Lewis Hart, 7 pounds, 5 ounces, 20 1/2 inches long. Baby Ashton was delivered still, due to a cord accident. My heart keeps breaking over and over. He was so beautiful, and so perfect. Sometimes life just isn't fair. I keep asking myself what lesson god is trying to teach, maybe that life is precious? Maybe they just weren't ready, but I don't think that's the case. I think god had a bigger plan for Ashton, and no matter how much I just don't understand how such bad things happen to such good people, I will continue to have faith, faith that god has a plan, for even the unborn. The past weeks events keep playing over and over in my head. Oh how I couldn't wait to hold on to that little guy, how I wanted our sons to be friends. Ashtons parents are officially my heroes. They are the two strongest people I know. They are holding together so well, and if it were me I think I would just fall. Someday, they will have a family, and be amazing parents. Actually... they already are amazing parents. What hurts me the most if the kind of people my friends are. Morgan comes from a family and a home that always had an open door, and open door to anyone. No matter what kind of situation there family was in, they never showed any kind of negative emotion, they were always smiling, always positive, always just keepin on. I hate to see them hurting, and I just want to take all there pain away. R.I.P little man, we'll be missing you always.

"His Name Is Ashton"

"He Is Still"

"If You Didn't Know"

"You'd Think He Was Sleeping"

"But For The Lack Of A Beating Heart"

"He's A Perfect Baby Boy"

"10 Tiny Fingers, 10 Tiny Toes"

"2 Big Feet, & A Little Button Nose"

"A Sweet Baby Boy"

"Just Still"

Ashton Lewis Hart April 21st, 2009

What A Slacker...

I have only had a blog for a month and I am already terrible at it. I usually find mysef to be pretty computer savy but for the life of me, I cannot figure out anything cool to do with my blog, & as of right now I have no real followers to ask for advice! Ahh, how frustrating. I'll get the hang of it eventually... I hope.

Where to begin on an update... How about our new house for starters. I officially hate the process of purchasing a home. What a crazy process, our closing has now been pushed back by one day 3 times, and it was pushed back from today until Tuesday at 1:30. I think the lord is getting a kick out of watching me squirm. However, I rest easy knowing that soon I will finally have an actual house to call my own. On a side note: I am crazy about black and white decorations, wall decals, etc. and I decided that I want one quote decal on each room of our house with the exception of the bathroom because it's not big enough, and I finally found the perfect one for our bedroom... It says "One Lifetime Will Not Be Enough For Us" simple I know, but absolutely adorable. I am so excited to decorate. We ordered our new appliances this week, they get delivered on Wednesday, I am really excited about my stove, now I guess I just need to learn how to cook... Hmm, there is always a catch to everything. Thank goodness for all the cookbooks I got at my wedding.

Logan is amazing. I always look at other peoples children and think gosh I remember when they were just born, and I have never felt that way about my own son until just recently. My 11 month old is all of a sudden like a little person. He does the funniest things, and he just woke up one day last week and said I think i'll start walking, everywhere. He gets into everything. He willingly says Momma, & Dada, he crawls to the bathtub when I ask him if he wants a bath, when I tell him it's n'nite time and put him in his crib, he rolls over on his side and goes to sleep. Where did my little baby boy go? Being a parent is such a gift, I actually find myself rushing home from work lately, because I cannot wait to get home and see what he will do next, and I just don't want to miss a single step. Ahhh, I love it.

So, it's my birthday today. Do you want to know what I have learned about birthdays? The older you get, the less exciting they are. It's really just another day. However, I am very greatful to our creator for blessing me with another wonderful year on earth to enjoy the things that mean the most to me. High Five God :)

Let's Get This Party Started....

So, instead of some boring introduction and about me, blah blah blah, I'll just jump right in as if I have been blogging forever. First, I'll give you some idea as to why I chose to join to blogging world. Between work, my son, & my husband, I feel like I have no time for myself, and I can't remember the last time I had a conversation that didn't involve bills, wasn't interuppted by a messy diaper, and had nothing to do with real estate. So, in order to sort my thoughts, before my head explodes, I have decided to give this a try.

ON A HAPPY NOTE! Today, we finished all of our paperwork, signed an offer, locked in our rate, and on February 27th, we will officially be home owners. I could not be happier. Finally a place to call my own, to make additions to, to make changes to, to clean, it's an amazing feeling. Over the past 2 years we have exhausted our options trying to buy a home, and just have not been able to do so with our debt to income ratio, the number of things we were making payments on, and my less than favorable credit from all those credit cards I had to have after graduating high school. But, we finally said enough is enough, we buckled down, sold our TOYS (quads and motorcycle), traded my car in for something a little more practical, and safer for my son to ride in (I love my new trailblazer for the record), limited our spending, and payed off almost everything we own. And Finally Finally FINALLY were able to purchase our own home. Ya know how they say the longer you wait, and the harder you work for it, the more you'll appreciate it, THAT COULD NOT BE TRUE ENOUGH. I cannot wait to begin a new chapter of my life, in our new home.

I can't believe how big my baby boy is getting. It seems like just yesterday we brought him home from the hospital, 8 pounds 1 ounce, 21 3/4 inches long, and now he is well over 20 pounds, sitting in a big boy car seat, taking steps here and there, & eating cheetos. What the heck? He has got such a personality, what a goofball, he is so dramatic, sometimes he even fake coughs for attention, because he knows everytime he makes a funny noise mommy comes running to assess the situation. He fake sleeps, but always blows his cover by smiling (with his eyes still closed) when I make duck noises, which he finds quite amusing. So, we have been thinking about a new addition to our family. Some people might think we are crazy, but we want our children close together, and Logan has been such an amazing adventure why wouldn't we want another? I am not exactly a pleasant pregnant person, so we are taking that into consideration, LOL! It's so up in the air, some days I want to start trying, other days I think maybe we should just get into our house, settle down with all the excitement and stress for a while, and than start thinking about a new addition? I am just paranoid, and I feel like I am asking for so much, we already have one healthy baby, and we have been so blessed these past 2 years, and I just don't want to take a chance that something could go wrong with another pregnancy, so in the meantime I am leaving everything in gods hands, he has never failed to answer my prayers before, so I am counting on him to lead me in the right direction... In the meantime, I'm getting a puppy. :)